It is a long time i have not posted anything. Really wanted to vantilate myself but due to some or other reasons I couldn't do it. The fact is that i used to read blogs but not wished to share my pain over here.

Few days back one of my friend told "do you know ..... got married" I behaved really normal, as I had nothing with him. I was the only one who responded to all the query.

That evening i had a long conversation with 'GOD', kept all my arguments, and he was speechless. May be it was my small town sensibilities where i considered LOVE as marriage. 

Kya rishte koi manie nahi rakhte, kya sirf shadi hi esh rishte ko bandh ke rakh sakta tha?  Shayad nahi, shayad shadi majboori ho jati. Aur shayad me jindegi bhar  unwanted ho ke, ush ki jindegi me rah jati. I have enough reasons to console myself but the truth is something diffrent.

Aaj bhi ankhon me utne hi ansu hai, jitne ush rat ko the. Dil me ek dars aaj bhi hoti hai. Chahte ye na chate hue bhi, dil ke kisi kone se yadein dard de jati hai. I know life will be horrible, and i have to forget him ek bure sapne ki tarah.